I'm posting this because it was truly the beginning of our Twin Journey. It is an experience that so many mommies of both twins and singletons can relate to, and it is the life experience that made me the mom I am today. I know I've promised to fill your feed with happy, and certainly will, but this is part of my story that I believe needs to be told. We tend not to talk about Pregnancy and Infant Loss because it's uncomfortable. Unfortunately, it is far more common than we'd like to believe, according to BabyCenter.com "about 10 to 20 percent of known pregnancies end in miscarriage." Not acknowledging pregnancy and infant loss leaves those in the moment feeling lonely, searching for success stories and potentially feeling 'unallowed' to grieve.
Once a year on October 15th, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Day I light a candle for our sweet little angel baby boy. In his honor, a few years ago I posted our story on social media and received a tremendous amount of feedback. Nothing fancy just simple feedback like "thank you for sharing your story." When people 'thank you' for sharing a story, I believe it is because it has touched them, they can relate and they're glad to hear that they're not the only one. I believe that mommies (whether we have children with us on earth or angels with us in our souls) are the most beautiful, powerful beings on earth. For this reason, I think it's important to share this story again as I begin my new journey on this blog. I still believe the best way to tell our story is to simply copy the letter I wrote to the our local hospital's (Mercy, St. Louis) program coordinator to let here know the impact Mercy HeartPrints had on my life. I felt compelled to share our story with them at the time so that the program would have yet another story with a happy ending to share for families experiencing similar situations because mommies are the eternal optimists and in these situations we are searching...no, yearning, to hear about someone else's happy endings because that reassures they are possible. After all, I did promise to fill your feed with happy.
I wanted to take a moment and thank for being the coordinator of such a wonderful program at Mercy and share the story of how I was touched by your work. Our story was that we had lost our little boy at 16 weeks due to Trisomy 13 last November (2012). We found out there were some issues with the pregnancy around 14 weeks due to an abnormal finding (cystic hygroma) during an ultrasound that I had requested from my doctor out of concern. While our check-ups had been going well and the heartbeat was strong I just felt that something was not right. I didn't know if it was new momma cold feet or something more, but my doctor agreed to an ultrasound to put my concerns to rest. Unfortunately, it began the longest 2 weeks of my life.
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